As some of you may know, I had surgery on my hip for a labral tear and impingement last summer. That surgery didn’t fix the issue(s), so I had to have a second surgery this past June. Recovery was going a lot slower than I would have liked and PT was more challenging than I had anticipated, but I tried to remain patient and optimistic.
At my most recent follow-up appointment with my surgeon, I found out that something else could be going on. I have been feeling pain that I shouldn’t be feeling. Through the white noise I heard “possible tear”, “may have to refer you to a specialist”, “may have to go in there again”, and “physical therapy needs to stop”.
Some other unfortunate events happened as well which resulted in a week of just bad luck. I had remained (somewhat) positive all of last year and I tried to stay positive these past few months. After that week, I shut down. I needed to allow myself to eat my feelings, to process everything, and to regroup.
Uncertainty can be a scary thing. I don’t have answers and hope I have them soon. My goal “comeback” date has been banished to the great unknown, and that’s ok. It is what it is, and that’s ok too.
Time is the most precious thing we have. The fact that some of you share your time with me and ask how I’m doing or how recovery is going means so much. Whether you see me at a race, send a text, leave a comment, or send a message...it means the world to me. Thank you.
I needed Tahoe. I needed to fully immerse myself with the sport and community I love. The road to recovery is a bumpy one, but I’m ready for it...again.
Squaw Valley, Lake Tahoe